The Despair that had been my constant companion for 18 months is lifting….

by irenedavid

I started posting here at a time when I was drowning in despair, heartache, pain, anger, doubt and hopelessness.  Somewhere along the way, those negatives began to lessen.  It was difficult to realize it at the time, but in the past two months even I can say, “yes, I can feel a difference in my life.”

That’s huge.  I still can get teary quite easily, but it’s almost always over how incredible God has been to us instead of how hopeless I felt that He would ever heal us.  God is amazing.  I don’t understand SO much of who He is and His plan, but the work He has done in my life and the blessings He has given us through the last 19 months have been awesome.

It helps that there are several people in my life that God uses to speak to me, but there is no confusion about who is doing the talking.  Still, those people who have been brought into my life are some of my favorite people.

My husband and I are finally in a healthy marriage…and it only took 35 years and a “catastrophe” to get there.

My top prayer is that my grandchildren will always know God loves them unconditionally,  and that they will love Him back.